Friday, April 9, 2010

A HomeBirthin Labor & Delivery Nurse...that's me!

12wks and 4 days ago I had the most profound experience that has forever changed my life. An experience that has renewed my love and passion for pregnancy & birth. An experience that reminded me of my childhood desires to "deliver babies." An experience that solidified my calling...the calling to be a Midwife that I've carried since I was 8yrs old! Yes, I believe that my Lord has placed a calling on my life to be "with women" during their pregnancies & birth.

As a child the only person that I knew who delivered babies was Dr. Heathcliff Huxtable from the Cosby Show..."push 'em out, shove 'em out, way out!" So, naively I thought I wanted to be an Obstetrician. I went off to college with the pursuit of caring the title MD. But the Lord showed me a different plan and being the obedient child that I am, I went to nursing school. There I learned about Midwifery & my soul stirred.

I sit at another crossroad in life. I have to go back to work tonight as a L&D nurse. My heart aches...aches to leave my new baby...aches to miss out on family time...aches to return to what medicine & science has done with God's perfect gift of birth. As my eyes fill with tears yet again, I am reminded of the encouraging words from a dear friend. This is my time to be a Labor & Delivery nurse. My time to be with women in a different role.

So, tonight I return to work as a Homebirthin Labor & Delivery nurse. I realize that this season is starting to come to an end and it is indeed time to plan for my next role. The big question is Certified Nurse Midwife (CNM) or Certified Professional Midwife (CPM)!?!?! I'm awaiting the Lord's Word.


Kelly Bass said...

Ta-nay-nay you are truly an inspiration! Keep listening to Him and He will guide you in the direction you are supposed to go.

Darcel said...

I think it's great that you want to be a midwife. I do too!
We need more black midwives.

I also think that once you go back to work, you can truly assist those women who wish for a natural birth.

Stay blessed!

Anonymous said...

I'm all for more women of color pursuing the path of midwifery. Go, mama!

In the meantime, your presence on the L&D floor will help those women who want to supported in natural birth.